I feel like I haven't been writing about the joys in my life lately because even amidst all of the trials, there have been some pretty important and BIG things going on. I asked earlier in one of my blog posts that I was waiting on God to do one BIG thing in my life that was good and how I had been on my knees praying for his presence to be felt in my life. For him to open a door and show me that he is near.
Even though I know Hebrews 13:5 states, "I will never leave nor forsake you." I just wasn't feeling like he was really listening to my cries.
Let me just tell you that GOD IS GOOD and his timing is always perfect! I got a new position at my current job which gave way to a much needed pay increase!! There was some hopeful news in my brother's trial that we first thought was bad. Sometimes, those things which we think are going to be bad really turn out to be good. I see that in my brother's death. There are things that have come out of feeling that pain and learning to cope. When my life experienced death, job loss, and health issues all at the same time. I have first learned to be more dependent on God in all things, even when I forget, I am constantly reminded. I would have never started doing the things that now bring me joy; blogging, crafts, and sewing to name a few. I have been able to teach Ava, my 4 year old about heaven and the forgiveness we have in Jesus and why we need to accept him as our Lord and Savior. It has brought my husband and I to our marriage mentoring program which I believe all couples should do. I think role reversal has been an eye opener for my husband and I. I have been given the greatest friends in the world and realize their blessing in my life everyday, especially when I was at my weakest. I look at life in a very different aspect than I did before, as a part of a much greater and bigger picture. I see things God has given us that I never saw before. I know that everyone has a story to tell. I have learned that happiness is not something we deserve but something we have to learn. Obedience to God is how we will receive great gifts in life. It is not about us but about God. Everything that God begins, he will finish, it all comes around full circle. I Thessalonians 5:24 NASB "Faithful is He who calls you, and He also will bring it to pass."
Exodus 33:13 NASB "let me know Your ways that I may know you" We have to experience it to know it. I would not know God personally if I had not been given the trials he has brought into my life. This is how he has revealed himself to me and made himself known.
It had been some 400 years before God revealed himself again and it was to Moses, asking him to go to Israel. In Exodus 3:12 God says "I will be with you..." and in Exodus 3:14 he responds to Moses question of who should he say sent him. God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I AM has sent me to you."
God is who he has always been, he has never waivered. Today we are taught to live by faith and not by sight. But I have seen through the ways he has worked in my life that prove to me that he is there, often I may feel like he is not, but he always shows up! In his perfect timing!!